discouraged

ach...today i was feeling a bit depressed, i don't know why. i actually regretted my decision for having the surgery! but i spoke to a few ppl, and now i feel better...mentally at least...!

omg

i can't believe i'm actuallii here. surgerii day....!

goodbye food/fat hello freedom...

DISTRACTION...

i'm just finding different ways to distract myself! i'm having ppl over for movies and ice pops! :P...THEY EAT WHAT I EAT TODAY!!!!! I'm cleaning...throwing out things in the meantime, and had a mini breakdown...I WANTED CURLii FRIES!!!!:w00t: ugh, and i have SUCHA A HEADACHE!!!

but then i went on www.obesityhelp.com i love that site because they have ALOT of before and after pics, and i'm more and more convinced that this is worth it....

goodbye old me

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FRIGHTENED.TERRIFIED.EXCITED.ECSTATIC.NERVOUS.THRILLED.

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wow....monday is the BIG DAY....i'm all of the above, and then some...i'm happii that i'm taking such a HUGE STEP in my life...and that I have such great support through FFF(family/friends/forum!).

But if i have to say one thing negatorii it's this: i'm sad that i have to take this step. that i couldn't control myself. that food (another F) had to be my BFF for such a long time...and now, i'm killing it off...all because my BFF tried to kill me....!

well, guess what? 3 F's are stronger than one F.
you may have won SEVERAL battles,
but i will win the F'n war

happii to be starving chronicles...my patience is being tested...

...so i get the call today...I'M DEFINITELY APPROVED!!!Then I get the call from none other than DR. HOLLAND himself....My surgery has been bumped back...AGAIN, another week!!!!

the funniest part?

i have NOTHING to do at work!!!

intro

hey...so this is my new blog....i'm not much of a blogg'r, but sometimes i'll just write random things down...i guess i want to chronicolize my next year or so...i'm gonna be going through some crazy stuff... i'm excited tho. i'll just put some of my old blogs in...where i'm tracking my weight loss and then around the first week of september...or so...i'll continue blogging...see ya later!



btw...i make up a LOT of words. so deal with it. lol